Breastfeeding (again)
It is so hard. Petit F sucks perfectly but the cracked nipples, the lack of milk, the supplement nursing system, the exhaustion, nothing happens as expected.
I do my best between crying and doubts.
The lack of sleep is the hardest part. I’m not sure I’ll be able to go on for long at this pace, especially with guilt and shattering morale.
I can’t remember Mr A’s first month of life because it has been so hard. For Little H, on the contrary, I remember very well how hard it was, with a mix of guilt, exhaustion and helplessness. I’m so afraid Petit F’s first month will be the same …